Monday, September 01, 2014

Adventures in getting home

So I got off work late Friday night. I could've caught the very last bus, bit I decided to get a ride. I called a family member, and he said he'd pick me up. I proceeded to the pre-arranged pickup point. And then he called me. His car wouldn't start, but he just needed to charge the battery a few minutes, and then he'd come and get me. So I waited. And waited. And waited. I called him again. Car was still no go. And by now the last bus had left.

Long story short, I had to call a cab. And to get home from work cost me almost $60.00. But I got home. And 1 friend and two coworkers have now told me to call them first. I hope not to call their bluff.

Lesson learned: take the bus if your ride can't start the car.

Just another adventure trying to get home...

Saturday, August 30, 2014

On office politics

The game of office politics is a strange game. The only winning move is not to play. Sure, you can get one (or a few, or many) of your enemies fired. But you will eventually fall victim to your own game. This isn't simply a matter of karma. It's a matter of if you play the game, then you're going to get played yourself.

Make peace with your enemies. And if your enemies are your coworkers, then perhaps you should re-think your contribution to the office dynamic.

Play the game, and you'll end up played yourself.

Friday, August 29, 2014

To my former boss (who I actually still work for on occaision).

Ok, so the Raiders won last night. Big deal. It just means their second and third stringers are better than ours. Besides this is pre-season. It doesn't count. When the Seahawks starters take the field, the only place the Raiders are going is down the toilet.

Flush.

ਤੁਹਾਡੇ ਸਾਰੇ ਅਧਾਰ ਸਾਡੇ ਨਾਲ ਸਬੰਧਿਤ ਹਨ.

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Another cover that is better than the original…

It is well-known that Shakespeare and opera are done best in Klingon. But did you know that pop songs (especially Sixpence None The Richer) are also even better when perform in Klingon?

I still got the skills…

I just finished rebuilding/reinstalling my system last night. I started this in July. Once upon a time, I would’ve been able to do this start to finish in 2 1/2 days. And that was a dual boot system with WinME and WinXP. Add an extra day, and I could get Linux working on it as well… Now it’s almost 2 months for one OS. Maybe it’s because I can do so much of what used to do online on my phone and my tablet. The only reason why I even run Windows on my tower is because of Flight Simulator. The only drawback is when I rebuild my Windows system is I also have to wipe the Linux side of my tower as well.

So, the next question, is OpenSuSE, Fedora, or Debian?

Sometimes, things aren’t as simple as they seem…

As much as I’ve tried to let it (and her) go, I still find my mind drawn to this matter, so once again I write…

I should’ve known it would never be easy. More often then not, I find myself questioning my decision. Was I right to let her go, or should I have held on, waiting for a reply that might never come. When I first wrote on this an anonymous commenter said I could move forward knowing the truth, or I could spend the rest of life wondering “what if”. I tried to tell the truth, and thereby be free, but I find myself keep thinking ‘what if?’. There are times when all one needs is a definitive ‘yes’ or no. Maybe I’m just oversimplifying things. I’m now beginning to realize that perhaps this isn’t such a simple matter as a yes or no. I can walk away, but I don’t know where I would be walking to. Maybe that’s the point. To just keep walking. As I previously written on, life is more of the journey, not the destination. Though it is difficult to walk when I don’t know where I’m walking to, or if I’m even walking in the right direction.

What I would give to gain the ability to shed such petty emotions and attain Kolinahr. But, as logical as I aspire to be, I have emotions, and they are as much a part of me as my arm is. The pain is real. Very real. I guess that make us part of who we are. The pain, and how we deal with it.

Having said all this, I wish her well. The feelings are still there, but so will my control over them. And if it is ever known that these feelings are returned, then I’ll revisit my stand on letting go and walking away. It is infinitesimally faint, but never underestimate Hope. But such things must also be kept in check. Reality must temper my dreams.

Sometimes, things aren’t as simple as they seem….

Saturday, August 23, 2014

So They Won Last Night...

They lost to Denver. They won vs. San Diego. And last night, it wasn't a football game. It was a massacre. Somewhere in the third quarter, Mills Lane ran into the field and tried to stop the game. It was that kind of blowout. The Seahawks punter didn't take to the field until well into the second half. Abd the Bears punter fielded more snaps the Jay Culter.

And I missed most of it. I had to open at $dayjob (which means being there at 6, which means up and at 'em @ 1:30 in the morning). Now that usually means that I'd be home in time for the game, but my firmer employer wanted me to come in and cover the shop for a few hours. So I did. Didn't get home till well after 9 last night. and then I had to run errands at my mother's house. But I did get home in time to sit down in front of the 60" and watch the third quarter....

I bought a coffee maker a year ago, and I have set where it is needed the most: in my room. So when I get up, I can hot the button, and have it ready by the time I scrape myself out of bed. But I didn't use it today. 10+ hours of sleep is a passable substitute for caffeine. And you do have to use caffeine responsibly. After all, The Underpants Gnomes have no place in the workplace.....

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Birthday misadventures and e-commerce…

My birthday was yesterday. I received lots of well-wishes from my friends on Facebook. But the actual celebration was this past Friday (my brother planned it). My sister gave me a Russell Wilson jersey, and we promptly watched the pre-season game where the Seahawks dismantled the San Diego Chargers. This was a complete surprise, as tradition dictates that my birthday never gets celebrated by my family. And I’m usually happy with it. Normally, I’ll take the day off, and enjoy a quiet day to myself. Actually I should correct myself. The past two birthdays, my brother has made sure that dinner was provided (I’m always happy with pizza or Chinese take-out). My father gave me a Spamazon gift card, which has all been used up. About this time, I had also been making some purchases (I’ve long since figured out that if I really want something, I’m going to get it myself).

Long story short, this is what I got:

With the Spamazon gift card:

  • A Samsung BD-F5900 / BD-FM59B 3D Wi-Fi Blu-ray Disc Player. It has Wi-Fi on it, so I can play Netflix on my 60” TV. There was some initial difficulty in setting it up, as it initially thought that it was still in Mexico (I saved a few dollars and got it refurbished). But I got it reset, so I can now use Hulu Plus and Amazon Instant Video. Though I currently don’t subscribe to either (that’s probably going to change, though…)
  • 300: Rise of an Empire. I liked the original 300, but I’m not going to pay movie theatre prices.

And I then got some other items on my own:

  • It was time I retired both Gateway EV700 monitors that I had been using for the past 14 years. So I got an ASUS VN279Q 27-Inch Screen LCD Monitor. Replacing 2 17” CRT’s with a 27” LCD. I should’ve done it soomer. I really like the HD display. And playing FS is going to be a blast with a 16:9 aspect ratio display. I no longer have to use my tv if I want a widescreen display (which is good, as it only has one hdmi port, and my Blu-Ray player only connect through HDMI)… And with the retirement of the EV700’s, I now am no longer using any component from my original Gateway computer that I got in November 2000.

And I’ve also purchased some DVDs:

  • Henry V. I used to have this before. Then I loaned it to a friend, and never saw it again. Shakespeare always makes a good epic. There are times in my life when I could use Derek Jacobi to narrate my life. We could all use a chorus… Though it is ‘out of production’ so I had to get a used copy….
  • The Princess Bride. A storybook story with the Dread Pirate Roberts, Princess Buttercup, and Andre the Giant….
  • The Austin Powers Trilogy. I liked all three films, and this was chance to own them all.
  • The Naked Gun Trilogy. I remember seeing these many years ago. This was Leslie Neilson at his finest. Play LA’s finest…
  • Robin Hood: Men In Tights. My. Favorite. Movie. Of. All. Time. And to think I never owned it on DVD. And somehow Mel Brooks’ retelling of the story is so much better than the Kevin Costner treatment. Rabbi Tuckman is better than Friar Tuck.
  • Spaceballs. When it comes to Lord Dark Helmet vs. Darth Vader, you have to go with Rick Moranis. And I even got an extra copy for my co-worker, Pizza the Hutt (see Rene, I did mention you…)
  • Top Secret. A spoof of both Elvis films and war epics. And it’s funny. Especially that one scene with the cow…
  • Monty Python and the Holy Grail. Once again, I used to have this version, but I lent it out, and never saw it again. Now that I have it again, I shall grin, and then feast upon the lambs. And sloths. And carps. And anchovies. And orang-utans. And breakfast cereals. And fruit bats. And large… On second thought, skip a bit, brother.
  • Star Trek VI: The Undiscovered Country (Special Collector’s Edition). I have the regular version (along with Star Trek II: The Wrath of Khan). For another birthday a while back, I got the Director’s Cut of that film, and so I’ve always been on the lookout for them.

Some of these items (like the Blu Ray player and the monitor) were purchases that I had been planning for a while. But most of the DVD’s I got on impulse in a moment of weakness.

I’ll try to be stronger. I promise.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

The Battles Within….

<Klingon video because I can…>

This is really difficult for me to write. For the past day or so, I’ve gone over what I’d be writing in my head, and on several occasions, I even had it completely written, but every time I sit down, my mind draws a blank….

I’m sorry in advance if this post seems more like a rambling re-hash of stuff that I’ve posted before, but I still feel strongly about the issues therein, and I can no longer hold my thoughts in…

I posted previously on a certain matter (see here, here, and here for the gist of it, though most of the posts from April through June were related to this…). I’ve posted that I was going to step away from this matter, and to keep silent on this matter. But I can’t simply just walk away. I keep finding my thoughts continually drawn towards her. But from obsession springs delusions, and that’s not a good thing. I simply need to let her go. As bitter as a pill that it is, it is the best. I want to be free from the obsessions, free from the delusions, and that means I need to be free from her. I have tried to contact her (and in at least one email I did indicate that I was attracted to her), and there has not been a response. Several conclusion can be possibly drawn from this, but I’m not going to speculate. I just have to accept that it’s not going to happen. I will not be a part of her life.

With that in mind, I’m trying not to be bitter. Hubris has gotten me into trouble before, and if I’m not meant to be with her then so be it. If you really love someone, then you’ll want that person to be happy. And if she’s already happy then the only thing I can do is to quietly rejoice in her happiness, and keep a respectful distance. I guess it boils down to the fact that I should be grateful that I got to know her when I did, and it’s time to find the strength and let her go.

Maybe then will I finally be free…